I was on IM with Science Guy last night and it was an... interesting conversation to say the least.
I have to say that since we're "just friends" I think I'm much more open with him than I would otherwise be if we were actually dating. I know that seems weird, but psychologically for me it seems to take the pressure off.
One of the things I realized that I do with men that I like is that I actually distance myself from them because I'm overcompensating. I feel like I make such a fool of myself in demonstrating interest that I actually pull back and perhaps don't show enough interest, which then leads the person I like to back away as well so as not to get hurt.
Based on what Science guy said I realize that this is probably what happened with us, and I realize that this is probably what has happened in a lot of my non-starter relationships.
But, like I said, I felt much more free with Science guy since we're "just friends" now, and he asked me about some items I recently mentioned I was shopping for... (Link totally not safe for work!) and that of course got us into a good and very open talk about sex... which was very different, but good at the same time.
And so, I've found myself thinking more and more about science guy, and about the potential there. I think I'd like to explore that some more, but now I'm not sure how to get out of the friend zone...